All my life
And the hereafter
I've never seen
Seen one like you
You're a knife
Sharp and deadly
And it's me
That you cut into
But I don't mind
In fact I like it
Though I'm terrified
I'm turned on but scared of you

She's a monster
Beautiful monster
Beautiful monster
But I don't mind
And I need her
Said I need her
Beautiful monster
But I don't mind

for you nur liyana

If I could have just one wish,
I would wish to wake up everyday
to the sound of your breath on my neck,
the warmth of your lips on my cheek,
the touch of your fingers on my skin,
and the feel of your heart beating with mine...
Knowing that I could never find that feeling
with anyone other than you.

What can the love in my soul be compared to another wonderful soul which is so far and yet so close of my self?
What can this symbiosis between two souls can be?
What can love be when you feel you cannot sleep at night, that every drop of dew becomes a crystal in your heart, when every breeze of wind has magical meanings?
What can love be when you feel that you want nothing more in this world that to be with the soul you love?
But what can love be in other transcendental realities? What about our souls?
Are our souls a waterfall, a true Niagara or a smile, a flirt of an angel? Are our souls a mere mood of a fairy or a lightening in a summer rain?
Our souls could be all of this and much more. But what really happens in that transcendental reality when we feel we are truly in love, that we love so much that it hurts? That the air in the room is unbreathable, that the sentimental, spiritual or physical distances kill us? What happens when dawn find us sadder than ever, looking for an excuse or an argument for the person we love so much, our Great Love? What are all thses? What are the looks lost in the desert horizons of unfulfilment or those in the eyes that deeply loose each other in the others inside the souls?

i wonder

i wonder how could it be that when a good deed turn out to be a wrong move. i think it over & over where i went wrong. but i couldn't find the answer. maybe its just me. i'm the fault from beginning. cause i dont know how things goes. i'm sorry if i offended any of you out there with my act, but i honestly didnt know that my act turn out to be a sour act.

for me there is always room for improvement, if i made a mistake do tell me and remind me so that i can improve.

thank you.

fun

yesterday n today was very tiring for me but a great time we have together. my girlfriend n my mates came down to singapore to hang out wif me. i was fun as i miss her so damn much n haven't seen her for 80 days. it was a relieve for me. to get to see n spend great time wif her.

....

its been a while since my last post. i'm at spore now in drydocks world doin some emergency repairs for the starboard side main engine n port side CPP. its gonna be a tiring week cz everything is in a hurry to prepare the vessel for labuan under shell charter. the last 75 days is hectic n boring as i spend more than 65 days at location standing by for the rig Actinia in the middle of the andaman sea bout 17 hours from yangon n 36 hours from ranong thailand. from there to singapore is bout 5 days. mild rough sea all the way from there till malacca strait .. tomorrow hectic n tiring week will begin.

until next time.

just arrived..

i just arrived at ranong, thailand...

its about 250km frm phuket international airport...

such a long journey..

i will go on board in the morning...

just trying to get some decent rest at the moment...

it was gloomy at the airport as i was sad to leave my family behind especially my dearest liyana..

she broke down in front of me, making me even more sad... told her to be strong...

i'll be coming back in july honey..

love you and take care honey.. where ever you are...