Counting days

After months at sea n days of towing. I'm safele now in vietnam after
delivering the barge for crane replacement.

From now on its counting days for me. Hope it will be a smooth sailing
till the middle of january. Can't wait to get back home. Damn, I miss
her so much.

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Regards,
Redzwan Rustam

Gran Turismo 5

Finally, what I've been waiting for. Bought this in spore. Can't wait to get back home n test it with my G27 steering wheel.

This is a so called collectors pack. It consist of a game cd, a booklet titled APEX, an artwork card with redemption code that gets you a special edition car according to your artwork & a die cast car model. For my pack, I got a mercedes SLS AMG.
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Superstar virgo

I spotted this ship yesterday as she was going alongside her berth. One day, I'll be on board as an engineer.
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Chart work.

Plotting the chart for our waypoint to KSB.
regards,
Redzwan Rustam

Salvaging Setia Wangsa

We are called to barge T10 to help setia wanga as she is unable to get out due to strong currents & some minor problem with her thruster. My vessel had to tow her out from there.
regards,

Redzwan Rustam

End of charter

End of charter with carigali n then to singapore for repairs. Next location is kakinada india. I was hoping that the ship won't go there as I hv bad experiences when I was there some years back. But. What can I do?

regards,

Redzwan Rustam

Held back

These few days, all of the supply boat operating in the kemaman area are held back due to heavy weather n a typhoon warning have been issued. With wind speed at 25 knots & gusting to 35 knots, all ships are advised not to engage in any activities.
regards,

Redzwan Rustam

Another day at the office.

This picture was taken by my oiler when we were doing maintenance on the starboard main engine sea water pump.

I was below the floor plates of the engine room trying to remove a piece of bolt that connects the pump to the gearing mechanism. It was a mess. I came out covered in dirt n grime. I guess its just another day at the office.
Regards,
Redzwan Rustam

Cakerawala

This is the cakerawala oilfield off the coast of kelantan. The sight at sunset is beautiful. Sorry for the low quality picture. Its taken frm my phone. This oilfield is run by petronas.

Seeing this beautiful sunset remind me of my baby liyana.
Regards,
Redzwan Rustam

Shitty day

Its a shitty day yesterday. All gloomy n filled with sadness. Everything doesn't turn out as planned. Its raining all day. Can't blame it on d weather rite? I hope & pray that when the sun rise on monday, I can settle this.

There is something bout nur liyana, she's a wonderful person. That's why I love her so much. I really miss her. I hope that I get to spend my remaining days by her side.

To liyana;
I love u so much. And thank you for loving me back. Wishing that we are together till d end.

our memories when we are in singapore together.. i cant forget that day when she came all the way from subang just to visit me while i'm in drydocking.. just wanna say thank you honey....

All my life
And the hereafter
I've never seen
Seen one like you
You're a knife
Sharp and deadly
And it's me
That you cut into
But I don't mind
In fact I like it
Though I'm terrified
I'm turned on but scared of you

She's a monster
Beautiful monster
Beautiful monster
But I don't mind
And I need her
Said I need her
Beautiful monster
But I don't mind

for you nur liyana

If I could have just one wish,
I would wish to wake up everyday
to the sound of your breath on my neck,
the warmth of your lips on my cheek,
the touch of your fingers on my skin,
and the feel of your heart beating with mine...
Knowing that I could never find that feeling
with anyone other than you.

What can the love in my soul be compared to another wonderful soul which is so far and yet so close of my self?
What can this symbiosis between two souls can be?
What can love be when you feel you cannot sleep at night, that every drop of dew becomes a crystal in your heart, when every breeze of wind has magical meanings?
What can love be when you feel that you want nothing more in this world that to be with the soul you love?
But what can love be in other transcendental realities? What about our souls?
Are our souls a waterfall, a true Niagara or a smile, a flirt of an angel? Are our souls a mere mood of a fairy or a lightening in a summer rain?
Our souls could be all of this and much more. But what really happens in that transcendental reality when we feel we are truly in love, that we love so much that it hurts? That the air in the room is unbreathable, that the sentimental, spiritual or physical distances kill us? What happens when dawn find us sadder than ever, looking for an excuse or an argument for the person we love so much, our Great Love? What are all thses? What are the looks lost in the desert horizons of unfulfilment or those in the eyes that deeply loose each other in the others inside the souls?

i wonder

i wonder how could it be that when a good deed turn out to be a wrong move. i think it over & over where i went wrong. but i couldn't find the answer. maybe its just me. i'm the fault from beginning. cause i dont know how things goes. i'm sorry if i offended any of you out there with my act, but i honestly didnt know that my act turn out to be a sour act.

for me there is always room for improvement, if i made a mistake do tell me and remind me so that i can improve.

thank you.

fun

yesterday n today was very tiring for me but a great time we have together. my girlfriend n my mates came down to singapore to hang out wif me. i was fun as i miss her so damn much n haven't seen her for 80 days. it was a relieve for me. to get to see n spend great time wif her.

....

its been a while since my last post. i'm at spore now in drydocks world doin some emergency repairs for the starboard side main engine n port side CPP. its gonna be a tiring week cz everything is in a hurry to prepare the vessel for labuan under shell charter. the last 75 days is hectic n boring as i spend more than 65 days at location standing by for the rig Actinia in the middle of the andaman sea bout 17 hours from yangon n 36 hours from ranong thailand. from there to singapore is bout 5 days. mild rough sea all the way from there till malacca strait .. tomorrow hectic n tiring week will begin.

until next time.

just arrived..

i just arrived at ranong, thailand...

its about 250km frm phuket international airport...

such a long journey..

i will go on board in the morning...

just trying to get some decent rest at the moment...

it was gloomy at the airport as i was sad to leave my family behind especially my dearest liyana..

she broke down in front of me, making me even more sad... told her to be strong...

i'll be coming back in july honey..

love you and take care honey.. where ever you are...

news..

received a news this morning....

i'm scheduled to go to phuket tomorrow..

to join vessel in ranong port, phuket on 17th march..

my next call of duty awaits...

me

this is me....

working full time as a seaman...

sometimes its hard for people to see that i'm away not because i wanted to but the nature of my work requires me to be away months at a time...

recently my tour of duty landed me in Vietnam..

it was a nice experience for me as that was the first time for me there..

life was hard at first as there is no halal food around. i have to change my diet to just instant noodles, egg and corn flakes and sometimes bread. but most of the time, it was instant noodles and eggs and mars bars.

now i'm at home waiting for my next tour of duty....

here are some of the photos while i'm at museum of war remnants...

enjoi...

sorry bout the poor quality, as all the photos are taken using camera phone..

this is a picture of me wearing a breathing apparatus or BA for short.. this was after a fire drill conducted on board...

a short story...

being this is my first post.. i will put up something of my favourite..

originally done by blink 182...

Push it out, fake a smile
Avert disaster, just in time
I need a drink, cause in a while
Worthless answers from friends of mine
It's dumb to ask, cool to ignore
Girls possess me, but they're never mine
I made my entrance, avoided hazards
Checked my engine, I fell behind........I fell behind

She makes me feel like it's raining outside
And when the storm's gone I'm all torn up inside
I'm always nervous on, days like this like the prom
I get too scared to move, cause I'm a fuckin' boy

Remember when I was in the grocery store, now's my time
Lost the words, lost the nerve, lost the girl, left the line
I would wish upon a star, but that star, it doesn't shine
So read my book with a boring ending
A short story of a lonely guy........Who fell behind

She makes me feel like it's raining outside
And when the storm's gone I'm all torn up inside
I'm always nervous on, days like this like the prom
I get too scared to move, cause I'm a fuckin' boy

She makes me feel like it's raining outside
And when the storm's gone I'm all torn up inside
I'm always nervous on, days like this like the prom
I get too scared to move, cause I'm still just a stupid worthless boy